My friend Ade, also a GP, told me recently that it's becoming almost unbearable to juggle work life, seeing patients in busy practices, with keeping track of your learning needs, collecting and organizing information, doing research of the material you may need for your appraisal, etc, etc while something called LIFE passes you by quietly. It’s as if we as doctors are no longer allowed to have a life, private or otherwise.
Anyway, despite all the aggro, ups and downs that I have gone through in the last two years, once thing is for sure in my life as it stands: I'm glad it's all over and well behind me. I don't want to go back to that lifestyle. In fact I don’t even look back.
I've always loved those chinese paintings of of mountain ranges raising majestically above the mist, the valleys between them shrouded in low cloud. For some reason I have always felt I wanted to go and climb them so as to enjoy the view from the top if anything else. When I completed my training as a GP in the West of Scotland in 2008 I opened this blog and I remember thinking one day that I had just climbed the first one of a series of mountains waiting to be climbed. All in neat succession. The thought wasn't depressing though, but rather one of new beginnings. I had climbed to the top of one just to be confronted with the view in the distance of an awesome range of mountains, all waiting for me to climb, one after another. Then I thought, och well, that's one out of the way and done with, let’s see what’s next. So... NEXT!
Four years on and so much has happened it's difficult to get a grasp of it all in one go. Change of life, change of career, change of social status, from being single to being in a relationship, change of living quarters and now contemplating a change of country where to live, love and prosper. So in order to gather my thoughts and give it a bit of a 'timeline perspective' I've decided to resurrect this blog and start writing again. For the longest time I have been interested in writing and there have been many times when people have said to me, write, write it down, keep a diary, take notes, get yourself a book or a bloc of notes, something, anything and write, just write, keep records, annotations, ideas. You'll need it in the future.
Naturally after being told so many times by so many different people I would make the effort and I would buy whatever I came across containing white paper, books, blocs of notes, with the serious and determined intention of keeping records of my life events. Of course i would start writing punctiliously for a few days but then life, typically working life, would take over and the project and all good intentions were go out of the window in an instant. I ended up with several books with a few entries in them, gathering dust in my shelves. So when I first heard about opening a 'blog' and keeping it, I thought, wow, this is brilliant, an online resource I can write on and that I can always access from anywhere with an internet connection. Well, let's see if the time has arrived at last.
Now that everything with a digital life seems to reside in the "cloud" it feels very fitting and appropriate to write in a blog, make entries, hang photos, ideas, etc, and who knows, maybe one day this will end up printed in physical ink and paper rather than “cloudy” ones and noughts. I suppose Facebook, at least up to a point, has been the place I could call ‘my blog’, a place where I would pour my heart's content or simply talk about whatever was bothering me at the time. A escape valve.
I remember though when I first opened my facebook page I began to freely write what was going on in my life or through my head without much thinking about who could read it. To my surprise I got some feedback from people who had "friended" me and that I had completely forgotten about. I realised then that practically anyone with a Facebook account could read whatever stupid thing I had entered. I was mortified. Yes, I could delete the entry but it was too late, people had already seen my ranting on and commented on it!
After that I changed my privacy settings and became more moderate on what I wrote about and how I expressed my feelings. Then one day I thought: Och well, who cares what people think anyway? Still, I feel that the space in a blog is more conducive to a more intimate recount of event. At the very least if anyone wants to read it they will have to make the effort of 'wanting' to see what's in it, rather than absentmindedly bumping into it in Facebook.
I remember though when I first opened my facebook page I began to freely write what was going on in my life or through my head without much thinking about who could read it. To my surprise I got some feedback from people who had "friended" me and that I had completely forgotten about. I realised then that practically anyone with a Facebook account could read whatever stupid thing I had entered. I was mortified. Yes, I could delete the entry but it was too late, people had already seen my ranting on and commented on it!
After that I changed my privacy settings and became more moderate on what I wrote about and how I expressed my feelings. Then one day I thought: Och well, who cares what people think anyway? Still, I feel that the space in a blog is more conducive to a more intimate recount of event. At the very least if anyone wants to read it they will have to make the effort of 'wanting' to see what's in it, rather than absentmindedly bumping into it in Facebook.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ZA5gtO5A84&feature=player_embedded
I found this video on the internet from a guy in NZ whose day job is with the Post Office but at night he makes music. I put it here because the name appraiser fitted the name of the blog. Well and because I like the music.
Speaking of which I've just found the latest song of a group I knew when I lived in Australia back in 2006 - 2007. The group is Sneaky Sound System and the song is Big, a song I've just fallen in love with. Here is the lyrics.
I heard them for the first while working in Australia. Their video clips "Pictures" and "I love it" were regulars on the massive screen of this shoddy gay bar I used to visit in Townsville, Qld. at the time. One of their songs, "I Love It" always inspired me to think and feel about my future relationship. It was as though my future partner was talking to me from the future through the lyrics of that song. Five years have on and I now find one of their newest songs which I find very inspiring given my current situation.
I usually refuse to use terms like hard, hard up, sad or terrible when referring to general life situations we all go through from time to time throughout our lives. It's my believe that everything in life happens for a reason, both the good and the not so good. And that we create them both. Always, whether we want or can accept it or not. This is how we grow. However it feels as though you give more power to a negative situation when you keep stating how bad it is or how difficult is getting or whatever. The more you moan, the more power you give to it, the stronger the reason you had to moan in the first place becomes. It's as you just simply amplify and perpetuate the same negative vibration. In other words, the more you think that you are in a bad situation, the worse you make it. Just by your thought, well, and a little help perhaps from the Law of Attraction, but that's another thing.
In reality it's all about perception. You could be surrounded by beauty (and you usually are, only need to open your eyes and look) yet be unable to appreciate it because you are in a mood or just reliving how bad things have turned out for you or your hip hurts. And this video going on about finally "making it", about having reached something "Big" moves me and inspires me. I can relate to the song very well. I strongly feel I AM at that moment in my life. It's been a long time coming.... My heart is aching.... I'm wanting more than you could ever know... Erm, but wait, that's "I Love It" The truth is that the new song ties in very neatly with the older one as if they were telling the same story only five years apart. I really feel however as though this is the moment I've been waiting for, and that there is more to come than we both, my beloved and I, would have ever cared to know.
Major life turning point.
Lately I've been searching the internet looking for information regarding implanted crystals. Yes, I know, well, I just need to know. That's how I landed on Isabel's web page (See Isabel de la Fuente entry elsewhere in this blog) I also landed in a page run by these old american guys, the Mick Doctors, who offer to have your crystals removed, naturally at a price.
Drs. Loren and Diane Mickelson are integrative counselors who provide a variety of services and products to help facilitate your journey.
In their website they talk about their personal journey from Corporate America to spiritual healers, jewellery designers and of course, their specialty, crystal removers. The tell how people had crystals inserted in their bodies in past lives, going as far back as the times of Atlantis and beyond, and how these crystals are still active in our bodies despite multiple re-incarnations of the soul. Apparently the crystal is reborn with you as it is attached to your etheric body. Also there seem to be different types of crystals depending on when in the past they were inserted. It's not the same a crystal inserted in Lemurian times than one from Atlantis say. These crystals seem to have been inserted in order to "slow people down" to temper and mute their disposition and aptitude for change, excitement, exploration, advancement and of course challenge of the established ruling classes. It would appear that in those times they managed to "read" newborn's energies so they could know if they were going to turn out troublemakers. And the best option they came up with was to insert crystals in them with the hope to stop them in their tracks.
It took me two attempts at contacting these people, but I succeeded in the end. Interestingly, when I tried to explain what my needs were regarding my past experience with crystals this is what I got:
And here is an update, reply to my third email, in red it's their reply.
I found this video on the internet from a guy in NZ whose day job is with the Post Office but at night he makes music. I put it here because the name appraiser fitted the name of the blog. Well and because I like the music.
Speaking of which I've just found the latest song of a group I knew when I lived in Australia back in 2006 - 2007. The group is Sneaky Sound System and the song is Big, a song I've just fallen in love with. Here is the lyrics.
I won't forget the time,
When you told me, we could be something,
The memory, it is mine.
We talked so many times,
You were always, my medicine.
You mean everything to me.
And every time I fall you'd take my hand,
And you would volunteer to understand... me.
This is the moment we've been waiting for.
This could be big for me and you.
This could be more than we both care to know.
This could be big for me and you,
We could do anything.
Of all the things you said,
But there's one thing, we can't escape.
Like a bird whose wings, are no more.
You said every time I fall you'd take my hand,
And you would volunteer to understand... me.
This is the moment we've been waiting for.
This could be big for me and you.
This could be more than we both care to know.
This could be big for me and you,
We could do anything.
We could do anything.
We could do anything.
Always by your side, up until it ends.
Always by your side, up until it ends.
Always by your side, up until it ends.
Always by your side, up until it ends.
This is the moment we've been waiting for.
This could be big for me and you.
We could do anything.
This could be more than we both care to know.
This could be big for me and you,
We could do anything.
And here is the video
I heard them for the first while working in Australia. Their video clips "Pictures" and "I love it" were regulars on the massive screen of this shoddy gay bar I used to visit in Townsville, Qld. at the time. One of their songs, "I Love It" always inspired me to think and feel about my future relationship. It was as though my future partner was talking to me from the future through the lyrics of that song. Five years have on and I now find one of their newest songs which I find very inspiring given my current situation.
I usually refuse to use terms like hard, hard up, sad or terrible when referring to general life situations we all go through from time to time throughout our lives. It's my believe that everything in life happens for a reason, both the good and the not so good. And that we create them both. Always, whether we want or can accept it or not. This is how we grow. However it feels as though you give more power to a negative situation when you keep stating how bad it is or how difficult is getting or whatever. The more you moan, the more power you give to it, the stronger the reason you had to moan in the first place becomes. It's as you just simply amplify and perpetuate the same negative vibration. In other words, the more you think that you are in a bad situation, the worse you make it. Just by your thought, well, and a little help perhaps from the Law of Attraction, but that's another thing.
In reality it's all about perception. You could be surrounded by beauty (and you usually are, only need to open your eyes and look) yet be unable to appreciate it because you are in a mood or just reliving how bad things have turned out for you or your hip hurts. And this video going on about finally "making it", about having reached something "Big" moves me and inspires me. I can relate to the song very well. I strongly feel I AM at that moment in my life. It's been a long time coming.... My heart is aching.... I'm wanting more than you could ever know... Erm, but wait, that's "I Love It" The truth is that the new song ties in very neatly with the older one as if they were telling the same story only five years apart. I really feel however as though this is the moment I've been waiting for, and that there is more to come than we both, my beloved and I, would have ever cared to know.
Major life turning point.
Lately I've been searching the internet looking for information regarding implanted crystals. Yes, I know, well, I just need to know. That's how I landed on Isabel's web page (See Isabel de la Fuente entry elsewhere in this blog) I also landed in a page run by these old american guys, the Mick Doctors, who offer to have your crystals removed, naturally at a price.
Drs. Loren and Diane Mickelson are integrative counselors who provide a variety of services and products to help facilitate your journey.
In their website they talk about their personal journey from Corporate America to spiritual healers, jewellery designers and of course, their specialty, crystal removers. The tell how people had crystals inserted in their bodies in past lives, going as far back as the times of Atlantis and beyond, and how these crystals are still active in our bodies despite multiple re-incarnations of the soul. Apparently the crystal is reborn with you as it is attached to your etheric body. Also there seem to be different types of crystals depending on when in the past they were inserted. It's not the same a crystal inserted in Lemurian times than one from Atlantis say. These crystals seem to have been inserted in order to "slow people down" to temper and mute their disposition and aptitude for change, excitement, exploration, advancement and of course challenge of the established ruling classes. It would appear that in those times they managed to "read" newborn's energies so they could know if they were going to turn out troublemakers. And the best option they came up with was to insert crystals in them with the hope to stop them in their tracks.
It took me two attempts at contacting these people, but I succeeded in the end. Interestingly, when I tried to explain what my needs were regarding my past experience with crystals this is what I got:
Hi Ricardo,
Thank-you for being persistent in trying to reach us. Your crystals that were planted in this lifetime are probably not for your highest good as are the crystals that are active within you. We were all implanted with good crystals that have not been able to be active because the negative crystal implants are using all your energy to function. In order to remove them we will need your full name, birth date, and where you are located. The easiest way to pay us is by using PayPal that can be found on our web-site.
Loren and Diane Mickelson
The impression I got was that these people were more interested in my money than in my crystals or my well being. I mean, they seemed to assume that ALL and any crystal within me were bad and that they needed removal. At a cost of course, it's $150 for a session in person, $110 if absent. On the other hand I thought, och well, more power to them. If it works for them then, why not? I mean, if there are people out there prepared to part with their money so happily just on the feeble promise that someone, somewhere in America (always America by the way) will do something for them like remove these crystals nobody can see, except them of course, very few people has ever heard of and that apparently have been with us since times long past, long before our own birth, well, as I said, more power to them.
And here is an update, reply to my third email, in red it's their reply.
hello and thank you for getting back to me so promptly.
so if i do understand it correctly what you are proposing is to remove the old crystals in other words, the crystals i was born (in my case i would suspect they are implanted in atlantean times) with but leaving in the ones i had put in this life all those years ago? We can remove the crystals that have been implanted in previous lifetimes. This lifetime implants we have the ability to turn them off so they are not functioning. They will either remain where they are or work out of your body like a sliver. or do you mean to remove them ALL? have you had in the years of your work come across anyone like me, i mean that they had crystals put in during this lifetime? Yes and they are fine. and if so, how are they, did you remove theirs? to what effect in their lives? You have access to more energy. Everyone responds differently and can only be limited by their own beliefs. are they any better? Their lives improved.
also, how long can i expect to wait before i notice any difference after the crystals have been removed? It all depends on how well you are in tune with your own physical body and how well you can sense your physical changes. is there a timeframe? It all depends on you and how you process things.also should i prepare myself BEFORE you start work, ie, take some time off work, detox a bit (cut down on coffee and alcohol, drink more water, stuff like that)? Your diet does make a difference. If you feel recovery time is necessary for you, you could have the work done on a Friday evening so you have the week end to recover. or it doesn't matter. i take that being absent would be $110? is that correct? The cost is $150.00. i've got a paypal account so that's not a problem.
Another entry I found on alien implants is this one
In it the author talks about Dr R Leir, a Californian podiatrist who has been removing alien implants for years. He first heard stories going around about people who claimed to have alien implants inside them. This is his own web page http://www.alienscalpel.com/
